Arches and Backbends
My strongest synesthetic responses in Florence, Italy were to the
shapes in the architecture. E.g., when I looked at the arches in this
image, I felt I was doing a backbend. The arches also sang to me on a
regular basis. I often thought I should have brought a tape recorder,
not a camera, for it was the sounds of Italy, not the sights, that
affected me most strongly. As a Synesthete, of course, my camera IS a
kind of tape recorder. This is how I took this picture:
I had just crossed the Ponte Vecchio Bridge from the south side when I
realized something had startled me on my right. It happened so fast
that it took me a few seconds to realize it, and by then, I'd walked
past the source of my distraction. I scanned the crowd to see who else
had noticed; surely,
something so unignorable to me must be noticed by other people, I
thought, yet no
one else appeared to have noticed anything out of the ordinary.
I decided to retrace my steps.
Looking straight ahead, I walked until it happened a second time. I
noticed that if I stood slightly to the right or left, the feeling went
away; also, if I came back at a different time of day, I
didn't have the same reaction though the beauty of the symmetry
remained. So what was it about this lighting, these shapes, this visage
that elicited the startle effect in me? And what exactly did I feel?
I remember the sensation of selfless abandonment, a suspension in
perfect balance outside the confines of time; the experience of
ever-so-briefly being free of all notions of quantity or measurement;
indeed of being beyond all notions of any kind. It is the feeling I strive for in my art though ironically I can only get there if I give up striving all together.
When I look at the image today, I want to run my finger through the
arches as if it would fit, as though I could wear the the rings of the
Uffizi as jewelry on my hand.